My little skater boy.
by his mother! Well, not really. What was suppose to be a weekend retreat to upstate NY turned into a week long vacation. At first, I was prepping myself for just a few days of relaxation and time alone to work on some projects around the house without the distractions of J, but it’s now turning into long days waiting to see my little guy. They come back today…Hopefully. It’s been harder then I thought, not seeing him everyday.
We’re heading out to LA in August and at first I was making this out to be a little test run for when that happens, But I think I failed. It may be tougher then I thought being away from him for so long. What’s worse is that it’s both me and my wife leaving him behind in August. It’s one thing for one of us to have him while the other one is away from him, but both of us being away from him at the same time! I already see us being nutty. Calling in constantly, demanding pictures to be sent, wanting to facetime with him, asking our parents to ship him overnight to us. It’s going to be tough.
Anyway, as long as my wife doesn’t extend her stay in NY, I’ll get to see the little guy today after almost a week of being without him.
Last week I lost my Grandmother, Jagger’s Great-Grandmother, to a long battle with cancer. Today we made the trip back to PA for the funeral to say our last goodbyes. We were fortunate to see her a few weeks before she passed while she was still in high spirits. This was one of the last pictures that was taken of her and Jagger.
Today is Jaggers Birthday! We survived 1 whole year. I’ll write a more thorough updated post later tonight after we stop dancing and celebrating the little guys birthday.
Is it safe to say that with a child, us (meaning parents) are welcoming the idea of being young again? Reflecting on our pasts and the way we once were. Sharing the things we once loved and cherished, the things that were special to us, and instilling that in our children. Are we forced to think young, pretend young, love young, and be young again? Are we reconnecting with something that was once so familiar to us, yet because of this crazy world and that whole “growing up” thing, we’ve lost touch with the child within?
Besides the excitement of having a child, I’m excited to open them to all the things I think a child would love, along with the things I loved when I was young. To stay young, you must think young, pretend young. Something I’ve been open to throughout my life. Though some may find it juvenile and immature, I find it refreshing to think I’m tapping into my young creative conscious and forcing me to think differently.
Though we must act as parents and role models and the mature adults that we are, I think it is equally important to show our children that we aren’t all that far off from one another in the things we dream and inspire to do. Our children are the ones that keep us young, though some may have the tendencies to turn us old (or prematurely gray from all that worrying). For the same reason our children look to us for guidance, we look to them for the simple joys of life. Because a child is so innocent without the worries and struggles of life, those joys are within everything a child does.
Not sure what I’m trying to say, but I’m excited to pretend like a kid again, even though I’m physically not. Though my body has grown old, my mindset has stayed young. I look forward to the idea of watching children’s cartoons, reading children’s books, coloring in coloring books, getting dirty, building a fort, climbing a tree, or anything else my kid may force me to do. For those of you who have lost that innocent feeling, hopefully you’ve been able to reconnect with it or will soon find it again through the kids you have or plan on having.