Confessions of a First Time Dad

November 11, 2010

Day 103

I’m starting to question whether my boy will be just like me. Though I see similarities within my parents, my father especially, I’m also far removed from who and what they are. Though I can’t help but think that my kid will be more like me then I realize. I often wonder if my dad see’s himself in me more then I know. Are these the same thoughts and feelings he had with his first kid? Maybe I should ask…

Times between children and their parents can become weird, distant, and sometimes awkward. Though I hope they can always come to me if they need to talk or discuss a situation, I also know realistically that times can be difficult in doing so. Especially in their teen years. But as I’ve said before, kids sometimes forget, or aren’t aware of the fact that their parents once went through the same exact things they are too. We aren’t too far off in thinking the same things and feeling the same things as them. I sometimes think if children/teenagers realized that their parents aren’t that far removed from themselves, communication can sometimes be easier. Though I strongly believe that the parent/child line still needs to be drawn and never crossed.

With that being said, and knowing the difficulties in communicating with my parents at various times throughout life, I’ve started to write an open letter to my son for him to someday read down the road, explaining life to him as I see it, before I forget. I think it will be a running letter, filled it with notes and things I learn along the way. Maybe it’s a cop out in being afraid to talk with my children about things, but honestly, think about the time when you were a teenager and how tough it was to express yourself at times. As I said before, I hope that my kids can always come to me with their concerns or problems. Maybe having an honest letter like this is a better way to communicate, or at least in helping start the communication process. Part of me see’s this blog in doing that same exact thing. Though I don’t think the world is ready to read about my first kiss and awkward stages of adoleces just yet. I’ll leave that to my kid to read and come to me with any questions he may have along the way…

So…number one thing I’ve learned? Find a wonderful woman like your mommy, treat her right, and marry her right away before someone else tries to snatch her up. You never know if the girl you ask out on a date at the young age of 16 is going to become your wife. Number two thing I’ve learned…Brownie points can do wonders for you. ;)

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